Sunday, May 11, 2008

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY to all the mums out there! (:


i miss my mummy.
she's in europe now and there's like 8 days more before she comes back.
after practical on thursday, i rushed off to the airport to send my mum off.
she is away on a holiday with 3 of her sisters/my aunts.
was really sad to see her check-in, i tried controlling my tears but still some of it just rolled down. it's the first time my mum is going away for 2 weeks and so far.
plus my daddy is working overseas.
after sending her off, went to eat together my cousin's family and poo.
after that, may-chae sent him home and i went over to her place to stay as my brother was coming home late.
well. since my mum went away, things dont seem to fall in place.
i dont feel 100% happy.
went to school on friday for fyp, spent some quality time with poo after that before meeting my cousin again to see a sinseh as im not getting any better.
after that, we went changi point to have dinner and i came home.
quarrelled with my brother as he wanted to go out again and come back past midnight.
i was still not feeling well and my cousin feels its not safe to leave me alone.
my brother didnt went in the end and so i stayed home.
that night i could not sleep at all.
i was coughing and had to take big breaths again.
i called poo but he was sleeping, msg cousin but she was sleeping.
just nice lawrence lao gong's msg came in and i gave him a call as i was feeling really down.
he had to hang up coz he was at a night walk and so i prayed and it rained and i managed to sleep at 4am.

as for yesterday, i went for breakfast with my brother in the morning before meeting poo for movies. we watched ironman and i think it's so cool!
walked around marina square and suntec after that til we were really tired.
i bought a pair of running shoes nike free! my brother's going to pay as it's my birthday present from him.
we came home to put the shoes down and went off to eat dinner near my place.
i wasnt feeling very well after that.
my brother was coming home late once again and i went to cousin's house to stay over.
i showered and took poo's cab down to may-chae house while he headed home.

i was really scared as i was having difficulty to breathe.
i was taking more big breaths than the previous days.
when i was showering, i feel breatheless and i was scared.
went to my cousin's house and told her about it.
she brought me to see a doctor at a 24 hour clinic.
the doctor said my lungs are cleared but why do i stil feel breatheless?
he gave me medicine to open the airway so i can breathe properly.
he said that my cough should be okay in 1 week time or i might have to take an x-ray to find out what's wrong. =(
i was really scared. i told poo and angela to pray for me.
i prayed and prayed.
i really want to recover soon and that i can breathe normally instead of having to take big breaths. haiz.





"So I lift my eyes to You, Lord
In Your strength will I break through, Lord
Touch me now
Let Your love fall down on me
I know Your love dispels all my fears.."