Tuesday, September 23, 2008

fyp today was hit by a rather bad news.
we found out by chance today that a few of our essential oils got contaminated and two of it were used frequently in our bases.
which means to say, WE GOT TO RE-DO almost ALL OUR BASES AGAIN! damn.

went to COOS after fyp with mummy and may-chae's family.
talked about fear, anxiety and forgiveness today.
i've learnt alot today and im gonna read about Deborah and take her as my role model.
the lady said there's alot of anxiety in me.
im burdened by my past, by those who have hurt me deeply.
it's time to let them go..

anyway, was talking to my fyp mates yesterday.
about being blind, deaf or mute, which would you rather be if you really had to be?
well.. for me, i rather be deaf or mute than blind.
being blind can be quite scary, living in darkness.
not being able to see the sunrise or the sunset everyday.
the stars, rainbows, the sun, the birds, the sea, the trees and all God's creations.
shouldn't we be thankful that we can see, hear and talk?

feeling a little emotional as i write this post, i dont know why.
maybe it's coz there are really many burdens that i've been carrying?
refusing to let them go.
burdening myself, it doesn't help i know.
i shall learn to take them down, instead of carrying them on my own.

feeling hurt can sometimes be painful.
accumulated hurt wouldn't it feel worse?